Missing a pill

Here is a video of me. I was late taking my pill. I almost forgot my pill.

I first got on the new schedule for this pill on Friday. I used to take it at night but now I am taking it in the morning, as the Doctor suggested. So I was "late" taking my pill on Saturday. I cried all day at everything and had panic attacks throughout the day. I am terrified that will be the reaction I will have today.

I am going to try and video document as well as write updates. I searched the internet for a real PTSD episode. I couldn't find any that looked like mine. It was mostly videos of people "AFTER" an episode. I had one the other night when it stormed.. I had the camera in my hand, but self preservation kept me from doing anything but hiding within myself. So no video of that yet.

On a side note, the pill that is supposed to take away my PTSD nightmares and help me sleep better (Prazosin) didn't have an effect last night. Was up all night tossing and turning with nightmares. Maybe it will get better.