It's hard to keep these posts going

Nightmares haven't stopped. I am now on a medication called Prazosin. This is in addition to the Sertraline and Buspirone.

I've started taking my Setraline in the morning instead of at night. I am actually getting more sleep because of doing that! Not a full nights, but more than 2-3 hours. I went through a crazy temporary withdraw from switching it up though. I cried at E V E R Y T H I N G and my panic attacks came back in full force. I felt like I couldn't breath all day. Everything was setting me off. All from switching from taking that pill around 10-11PM and now taking it when I wake up in the morning... around 7-8AM. Those hours made a huge difference. Also made me scared to ever give up the medication.

Prazosin is now prescribed to keep the nightmares at bay. I was told by my doctor that this is what Vets, and other PTSD sufferers, are prescribed to keep the nightmares in control. If I could stop dreaming about shootings I would be in heaven. She said it isn't going to make them stop completely, but will keep my reaction to them under control. So no early morning panic attacks. Maybe making the nightmares lessen, and in some cases no memory of them at all. Heaven.

Erich is planning on opening up to Roberto. I am excited about that. Again, he flat out told me he didn't want to open up to me, for fear of triggering me. He came to the conclusion of opening up to Roberto on his own! Thank. God. He has been officially diagnosed with depression... again. He turned down medication for it, which isn't wise. I told him at his next appointment he needs to get on something. All I can be is a good example to him, and show him how the medication is helping me.  I will stop nagging him about medication, and he seems to have come to the conclusion that he needs to take his current medication as directed! Hopefully when he opens up to a friend, they will encourage him to do the same.

My session with my doctor was only 30 minutes on Friday. She didn't want to continue it since my lack of sleep was obvious. Also I forgot to bring my letters and stuff. She said we can continue prolonged exposure therapy this Friday. She also said that she is impressed at the way I handled Erich's outburst and how well I am progressing so far. She makes it seem like it's a BIG improvement, so I guess I should be proud of myself for that. She thinks we can start spacing out our appointments. So that's another good thing.

Had a relaxing weekend away from home. Went to Patoka Lake with Erich and my Family (Marcus, Kelly, Kristen, Beau, Alysha, Liam, Lilly, Becca, Anthony, and Mom). Whoa, full house! Here are the few pictures I took.

Erich at the lake 

Patoka Lake in Indiana

My niece Lilly

Enjoying the hot tub on a cool morning