Talking points:
I need to see her more frequently or longer than these 30 minute sessions. It feel myself regressing with her schedule change.
I might have to quit my Master's program. I can't handle the stress. Too much stress. I am a failure.
I am actively avoiding almost everything causing stress. Avoidance is the number one thing I should NOT be doing, and yet... I cannot even look at Halloween decorations or watch things that are violent.
A sub-point of avoidance: I am avoiding my family.
Depression/suicidal thoughts are coming back. I get triggered by thinking I am dying, by feeling the pressure of a gun because someone is behind me, but now instead of fear, I just don't care.
I don't care about any of it.
UPDATE: She cancelled my appointment... Again... And I really needed her this time.
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