I am crazy

I feel like I am going crazy. I know I am crazy already but I truly feel it now. I can't sleep. I can't think. I am still suffering from Cognitive distortion. I can't retain information, and I cannot form serious coherent thoughts for longer than moments at a time.

I just want to cry and sleep and it's becoming harder to sleep.

I don't do anything any more. Everything that made me who I am has been tossed out the window. I can't go to or enjoy movies. I have no sense of humor. I don't even want to write or listen to music or watch TV. My creativity has vanished. All I can talk about is how sad I am. When I don't talk about being sad or scared, all I can do is listen and not even respond to what I am listening to. Then in moments I forget what the conversation was about.

I am irritable. I am not social. I am lazy. I hate this person.

I know going for the little sleep I get will be filled with nightmares. Then I wake to a panic attack. Then I wake to a day where I can no longer function. Then I repeat it all over again.