It's Working!

Now for a positive entry!

The medicine has to be working! First thing I started to notice... My sense of humor has returned! I've been cracking jokes on people left and right. Also, could I be any more sarcastic? Seriously. My sarcasm is at an all time high. I am laughing again!! It feels great :)

Second thing I am noticing, noise are not bothering me as much as they should. I still recognize loud noises but unless it's very loud (a scream, a clap in my ear, fireworks) I don't really jump. Maybe still flinch and the occasional audible gasp, but I am not triggered into a panic attack (Yay)!

Another thing... My vocabulary and spelling is improving. THANK GOD. It was elementary!! I was confusing hear and here and her a little too much for my liking. Like the basic spelling of things so basic... It just wasn't working out for me. So some signs of brain function!

I haven't had a panic attack in a few days (minus the occasional early morning ones). But like, it's not disrupting my day or activity or anything. It's literally just in the wee hours of the morning (right now).

I am trying to get focused and start doing activities. For example, I would come home from work and then go straight to bed and lay there the rest of the night until I had to get up for work. Now I challenge myself to stay up. I started baking and making dinner again. Chores too! Just gotta keep pushing myself into a better routine, no matter if I don't feel like doing it or not.

I wont' talk about the negatives right now. I need to stay focused on the positives. My life isn't doom and gloom all the time. I need to remind myself of that. 

SHORT TERM GOALS:

I want to continue to bake.

I need to get out of the house at least 3 days a week, and go from there.

I need to start exorcising and watching what I eat again

Continue to write often and improve my vocabulary.

Find a new job!

Make it into the movie theater again.

LONG TERM GOALS:

Make it into the movie theater again. (Kendra told me to put this on the short term goals, but just in case...)

Challenge myself with something thrilling (roller-coaster? scary movie? something...)

Start reading books again! I have to get back into reading books! I miss them! This might be a short term goal... oh well, we'll see :)

VERY LONG TERM GOALS:
View an airport baggage claim.
Look at a gun.
Listen to gun shots or fireworks.